The question is, why?
The answer is, I have absolutely no fscking idea. Just saw the ad and suddenly wanted a smoke. Well, maybe, maybe remembering Tokyo Babylon has something to do with it. I can, at least, reconstruct the associative chain that brought me to remember it, but I’m sure it doesn’t explain why this somehow became desirable.
I never smoked before. I’ve always been quite smoke-tolerant — my mother and father smoked rather heavily. Father eventually quit and only returned to smoking via pipes pretty recently, as he felt old age coming closer. Mother kept smoking, and smoking only cigarettes, throughout my life, and is still at it. There were special rules for smoking only in prescribed places and with prescribed conditions in this family, and I was usually not to be admitted to the smoking locations when the smoking was underway, (They said it has something to do with me having asthma in my childhood, but I don’t see anything definite like this in my medical records.) but one day when everybody left me about seven years ago, they took the ashtrays with them, and only from time to time guests would smoke using makeshift vessels for the purpose.
And now I just suddenly… bump and I make a point to get a pack with my usual energy drinks and make a point of smoking it on my way home.
…Is that a sign that something, finally, changed in this world? That is, in my world?
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